TheEndWhereIBegin

Its 5pm here in The Netherlands ands getting really dark. There’s sounds of thunder and such everywhere—they’re all fireworks. Everyone has started firing them since yesterday. I don’t get it, why would you waste them all before the actual new year? On top of that, its really foggy so you can’t see sh*t.

I was just looking back at 2010, what had all happened globally. Its kind of depressing actually, however, there were good and bad things, like there is to everything.

• Earthquake Haiti
• Love Parade Tragedy – Germany
• Bombings in Metro – Moscow
• Volcanoe Eruption – Iceland
• World Cup- South Africa -I still think the dutch should have won
• Common Wealth Games – India  
• Apple and its products (iPads, iPhone 4, etc.)

And so many more!

I hope 2011 will be an amazing year, which im sure it will be.
Everyone, in Australia the New Year is already there, however, enjoy the evening with lots of fireworks and have an awesome New Year!!

Oh, and do YOU think we’re a year closer to the end of the world?

I am not a writer, but I -can- write letters to people. haha.
I dont know why I'm doing this. I guess out of boredom and to get through time.
This challenge I found on Tumblr: letterchallengetumblr.tumblr.c… was pretty cool. Some of my friends have tried it, and so i was like, why not? :]

So I guess if you wanna try it out go ahead. All you really need to do is write a letter to the following people (?)

The 30 Day Letter Challenge:

WRITE A LETTER TO THESE PEOPLE :

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you've drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that's not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

My morning:

I take a seat on the marble staircase
and I look up at the blue bright sky.
The chill breeze wraps around me and I close my eyes to think of you.
Of where we used to be.
Birds chirping away, wave-like sounds in the back of my head.
The wind takes me off the ground, and I, I now float on the clouds,
where rushing sounds are unknown. My eyes so tired, they are glued together.
I feel then, a wet spot, a wet spot on my arm.
A black snout, and a wiggling tail of a cute fluff dog with its adorable eyes.
Cutest thing on earth. He, he made my day, and so, I start my day.

I'm over it.
I'm so sick of looking back.
Its pointless, the amazing memories is all I need.
Maybe not even that, because every time I talk to them,
They just hurt me like stabbed me in the heart you know.
I think of them every day, but do they ever think of me. I doubt it.
They miss me is what they say, and I hesitate to believe that.
Best friend you know, they're not supposed to give up on you. They're forever,
But some, they were just a lie. And now I start to realize, they were all a lie.

I need you.
I need you to pull me back up.
Get me on my feet.

I am,
I am useless without you.
Give me your hand,
give me your strength,
give me hope.
Im falling apart,
don’t leave me.
Try, just try to save me.
_______________________________________________

Everything is going wrong
Can’t explain myself
Can’t explain myself no more.

The thunder, rain hitting my like hammers.
Dogs crying, trees waving.
A roaring sea, like a lion.

Get me out of this mess.
Out of this mess!
Choking on my own words.
Can’t do this anymore.
Its over…for now.

_______________________________________________

I’m waiting for something that isn’t coming.
Waiting for something unknown.
Words won’t leave my mouth,
thoughts blocking my thinking.

Please, give me one more chance,
one more chance to make things right.
Just don’t let me hanging here…
don’t let me hanging here.
_______________________________________________

Remember how we used to walk,
hand in hand like a puzzle.
Remember how we used to hug.
All the time, it never stopped.
The two of us. could sit for hours
stare into the distance.
Watch the sunset, and rise.
The way you looked at me,
the way I looked at you.

I’m so lost, so lost without you.
Just promise me you’ll come back,
come back one day.
_______________________________________________


The butterflies inside me
turned into monsters eating me.
It used to be different. We, used to be different.
I tried to convince you, its gunna be all right,
but you didn’t have faith in me. No faith at all.

You gave up, gave up all your hope.
You were left with nothing, I was gone.
You should’ve thought twice,
instead, you took the wrong path.